The only constant in life is change

It cannot be more true.

What might have been important to you might not be important to you now. I used to place very high regards on how people look at me so i try hard to look like i'm enjoying my life to the fullest, that i've got a wide social circle, and things like that. That was, maybe the lower secondary phase? Everything was so superficial and dumb. It's not that i'm completely oblivious to people's perceptions of me now but that i stopped trying so hard. People talk all the time. As long as i stay true to my heart, i guess i'm fine.

Also, people who've been there for you might not be here to get your back anymore. I miss so many people that used to be in my life who are here no more and there are so much regret and guilt in me it gets so hard to suppress these feelings sometimes. Right off from the top of my head will be daddy, and two of my very good friends in secondary school whom i've drifted apart from. I wish that i could make it up to them, to tell them how sorry i am and how much i would give to have them back in my life but for my dad, i'll never be able to do it ever and for that two friends, i just couldn't bring myself to. What good will it do? Everyone has moved on. Me too. But i just couldn't help but miss them once in awhile.

Sometimes, i very much wish to go back to certain points in my life, take a look at how life would have turned out had i made certain decisions or not made some. But really, i'm happy with life right now and there's no incentives for me to change what is currently mine.

I really should start sleeping early. Realise a trend here? I sleep late, i post up entries that are too emotional.